Updated: Jul 13, 2021
Good morning, it is Friday, May 14, 2021.
Three months ago I hurt my shoulder. I had spent some time stacking firewood but I think the main culprit was working in my garage.
After my husband passed away, I turned my attention to getting things done around the house such as unpacking a very full garage.
My friend Hayley had helped me get started in late January and it was just the motivation I needed to keep it going. I told myself "just one box a day Jeanette; unpack just one box." I found that after unpacking and sorting one box, I would often grab a second box and third, fourth. Some days I unpacked up to 10 boxes.
I wish I had a 'before' picture. My double car garage was filled to the ceiling, well, just to the automatic garage door mechanism.
I had one small path to the outside door and one small path to the big door and that was it. Years of accumulation. It was ridiculous to be honest. I ended up taking 5 carloads, 2 jeep loads, plus, my friends Larry and Sherrell helped me finish up and they took 2 truckloads of stuff to the Community Thrift Store. Why do we have so much stuff?!
Anyway, back to my shoulder. I was working in the garage one day in early February and had lifted an extremely heavy box over my head and pushed it back on a shelf. As I pushed, I felt a pop in my right shoulder. It was not terribly painful, but I remember thinking "that was not good." Within a few days I could not use my arm.
You have no idea how much you use something until it is no longer usable. Everything from washing my hair, brushing my teeth, dressing, feeding myself...it all became a painful task. My greatest joy is working in my yard, planting, and landscaping and that was just not possible, still is not.
I am not one to run to the doctor and thought it would heal on its own soon enough. It did not. In late February I went to my doctor who announced it was a rotator cuff injury and gave me a shot in my shoulder. If I ever must do that again it will be too soon, but it helped, for a couple of weeks.
To make a very long story short my doctor ended up recommending physical therapy. I will go twice a week for four weeks. My second appointment was yesterday, and I already have more range of motion.
It really blows my mind how a few minimal exercises, done the right way, can help improve something that has bothered me now for 3 months (seems longer) We still have a way to go but I am optimistic. My PT said he wants to get this frozen shoulder moving and then decide if indeed it is something more serious such as a tear in the rotator cuff.
I have prayed numerous times that my shoulder would be healed. I have staff members that have prayed for me and yet I am still in pain and in need of help.
I remember during this ordeal thinking if I could just get to the pool of Bethesda.
John 5 "...in Jerusalem near the Sheep Gate a pool, which in Aramaic is called Bethesda and which is surrounded by five covered colonnades, where a great number of disabled people used to lie—the blind, the lame, the paralyzed. One who was there had been an invalid for thirty-eight years. When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition for a long time, he asked him, “Do you want to get well?” “Sir,” the invalid replied, “I have no one to help me into the pool when the water is stirred. While I am trying to get in, someone else goes down ahead of me.” Then Jesus said to him, “Get up! Pick up your mat and walk.” At once the man was cured; he picked up his mat and walked."
This story does not tell us that man had faith. It does not say He asked Jesus for healing. It tells us Jesus saw him and took pity on him and healed him. Oh, to be healed by the Master's touch!
I have often thought if I could just see Jesus in the crowd, or if I had been alive at the time of Matthew chapter 9, I could be healed!
Matthew chapter 9 tells us that Jesus was having dinner at Matthew’s house when a synagogue leader came and told Jesus his daughter had just died. The man knew if Jesus would come and put his hand on her, she would live. Jesus got up and went with him, but, as they are walking a woman who had been menstruating for 12 years came up behind him and touched the edge of his cloak. She had said to herself, “If I only touch his cloak, I will be healed.” She was! What faith! As Jesus left the house of the synagogue leader, after bringing his daughter back to life, two blind men followed him, calling out, “Have mercy on us, Son of David!” He touched their eyes and healed them because they had the faith that He could do so. Jesus walks a bit further and a man who was demon-possessed was brought to Jesus and He drove out the demon. WOW!
That chapter alone is jammed packed with miracle after miracle. What a God! The chapter ends by saying that Jesus went through all the towns and villages, teaching in their synagogues, proclaiming the good news of the kingdom and healing every disease and sickness.
This world is full of disease, sickness, and pain. We do not know why God chooses to heal some and some He does not. But Isaiah 55:8-9
puts it plainly "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts."
We anointed my husband twice during his fight with cancer. My family begged God to heal him. God's answer was no. We all have people in our lives that need healing, but I am convinced, and have often said, God is working for our eternal salvation.
Isaiah 57:1 says "Good people pass away; the godly often die before their time....No one seems to understand that God is protecting them from the evil to come." - New Living Translation
Our only job is to trust Him. He knows what is best and one day soon he will wipe away all our tears and make all things new.
If you are struggling with physical pain or emotional pain, trust Him. His love for you is too big to understand!
I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. - Ephesians 3:16-19