Good morning. It is Tuesday, February 1, 2022. Jeanette Stark here. Welcome to February. 😊
January was a tough month for me. It was the one-year anniversary of Wendell’s death on January 2nd. It was the one-year anniversary of his memorial on January 24th. The one-year anniversary of going through our closet and his dresser drawers. Lots of firsts. I didn’t see the extreme sadness coming either. I thought I was doing okay. But all the sudden, this sneaker wave of sadness crashed over my head and continued to crash until I felt I would not come up for air.
There were mornings when I was late to work because I simply could not get out of bed or get dressed. Mornings when I stared at my computer screen, knowing I needed to write, but having no idea what. Simply put, I miss him. I miss his companionship and his help. Days when I stared at projects I knew needed done, but was almost incapable of doing them. Wendell was a great help to me.
I have mentioned it before, but he did all the grocery shopping. I remember one day realizing I had not stepped foot in a grocery store in over a year. He loved to shop; I hated it. Grocery shopping for Wendell was more than simply buying groceries. He would chat with the butcher in the meat department and the guy or gal in produce. He would engage people in the aisle. He would tease the cashiers. He would play the claw machines and hand his prize to a child (or adult) who was watching. He loved to shop.
Wendell did all the laundry. I used to tease that I knew we had a laundry room, I just wasn’t’ sure where it was. I would put my dirty clothes in the hamper, and they would magically appear in my closest the next day.
Wendell did all the dishes, and many times would come behind me as I cooked, cleaning as we went.
He did all the little things like taking out the garbage and making sure the can was curbside each week for pickup. Digging holes when I wanted to plant. Installing fencing and gates when I had a new idea. Creating a door in our bedroom wall when I wanted quicker access to our hot tub. He made our bed every morning. He was the epitome of a helpmate.
One of the many things Wendell did was clean out the drain in the tub. You know, over time it becomes clogged with hair and gunk, and he would get down on his knees and clean it out. I could not even watch him do it because what he pulled out of the drain would trigger my gag reflex. It was gross.
So here I am for the past month, knowing, by the very slowing drainage, that I needed to clean out the tub drain. I dreaded the idea, for lots of reasons. I put it off for as long as I could until yesterday morning, I realized I could not put it off any longer. It was taking a very long time to drain, and I knew what I had to do. I struggled a bit last night trying to figure out how to remove the plug and what met my eyes did not disappoint. But I did it. I did it!
Isn’t that just like Jesus? He reaches down into our lives and removes the gunk that has been building up. Where water did not flow, He causes it to flow freely.
Psalm 107:35 says, “He turns a wilderness into pools of water, and dry land into watersprings.” NKJV
Unlike me however, He does it willingly, on time and every time we need it done.
“who gave Himself for our sins, that He might deliver us from this present evil age, according to the will of our God and Father,” Galatians 1:4 NKJV
Jesus came to save us. It is a gift that we will never be able to repay.
“For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 6:23 NKJV
The sin in our lives is like that gunk in your shower drain. You do not notice it at first, but over time, the water drains less quickly until one day, it will not drain at all. Jesus paid the price for OUR sin. He took our sin on Him. What a gift!! I know the only thing Jesus wants in return for that gift is a thank you. A thank you and a “yes. I want to live with you for eternity Jesus!” Go to Him now. Confess your sins and accept that precious gift of free running, living water.
“But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin…If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” 1 John 1:7-9 ESV
Not only is Jesus the living water, but the Bible tells us that when we drink of His water, we in return will become a well of water from which flows more living water. Incredible!
John 7:38 “He who believes in Me, as the Scripture has said, out of his heart will flow rivers of living water.” NKJV
That living water leads to eternal life. May we long drink from it and may we show others this beautiful water as well.
“but whoever drinks of the water that I shall give him will never thirst. But the water that I shall give him will become in him a fountain of water springing up into everlasting life.” John 4:14 NKJV