Updated: Jul 13, 2021
From Wednesday, March 31, 2021.
I could use your prayers today. I am giving my testimony. It is a powerful testimony of how, with the Holy Spirits help, I was able to conquer addiction.
I have fought addiction most of my life and by fought I mean it was constantly on my mind.
If I was able to give up alcohol or other drugs for a time, it was still always on my mind. I could go months, a year, even two years without using or drinking, but something always came along to persuade me that I needed to pick it back up again.
1 John 2:16 ESV "For all that is in the world—the desires of the flesh and the desires of the eyes and pride in possessions—is not from the Father but is from the world."
I knew that what I was doing was wrong; living with one foot in the world and one foot in church. I knew it was wrong, but I could not conquer this beast; not fully.
If you have never struggled with addiction it will be hard to fully understand. Romans 7:18-20, 24 explains it the best:
"For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. Wretched (woman) man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death?" - ESV
I could have written that! That has been my story since I was 14 years old.
I love The Message version:
"I can anticipate the response that is coming: I know that all God’s commands are spiritual, but I’m not. Isn’t this also your experience? Yes. I’m full of myself—after all, I’ve spent a long time in sin’s prison. What I don’t understand about myself is that I decide one way, but then I act another, doing things I absolutely despise. So if I can’t be trusted to figure out what is best for myself and then do it, it becomes obvious that God’s command is necessary. But I need something more! For if I know the law but still can’t keep it, and if the power of sin within me keeps sabotaging my best intentions, I obviously need help! I realize that I don’t have what it takes. I can will it, but I can’t do it. I decide to do good, but I don’t really do it; I decide not to do bad, but then I do it anyway. My decisions, such as they are, don’t result in actions. Something has gone wrong deep within me and gets the better of me every time. It happens so regularly that it’s predictable. The moment I decide to do good, sin is there to trip me up. I truly delight in God’s commands, but it’s pretty obvious that not all of me joins in that delight. Parts of me covertly rebel, and just when I least expect it, they take charge. I’ve tried everything and nothing helps. I’m at the end of my rope. Is there no one who can do anything for me? Isn’t that the real question?"
WOW! I can relate to this on so many levels.
Addiction has many faces; alcohol, marijuana, pills, gambling, porn, food, and tv. I had a friend who was addicted to shopping. Some are addicted to exercise. I am sure there are more.
Addiction by definition, according the Merriam-Webster, is 1) "a compulsive, chronic, physiological or psychological need for a habit-forming substance, behavior, or activity having harmful physical, psychological, or social effects and typically causing well-defined symptoms (such as anxiety, irritability, tremors, or nausea) upon withdrawal or abstinence. 2) strong inclination to do, use, or indulge in something repeatedly"
Drugabuse.gov says "Addiction is defined as a chronic, relapsing disorder characterized by compulsive drug seeking, continued use despite harmful consequences, and long-lasting changes in the brain. It is considered both a complex brain disorder and a mental illness."
That was me friends. And I so desperately wanted it gone from my life. But how?? I could not do it on my own.
I want to share with you the pivotal point in my life.
I was reading Steps To Personal Revival by Helmut Haubell. In that book he speaks of the need of the Holy Spirt. I had never thought of it before. I had never prayed for the Holy Spirt, not one time in all my life. I have no idea why. It was just lost on me to do so. Mr. Haubell quoted Luke 11:9-13 and the lightbulb came on for me!
I had remembered that text as saying God loves to give good gifts to those who ask. In reality it was pointing to the gift of the Holy Spirit, and even says as much.
Luke 11:9-13 NKJV (especially verse 13) “So I say to you, ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. 10 For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened. 11 If a son asks for bread from any father among you, will he give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will he give him a serpent instead of a fish? 12 Or if he asks for an egg, will he offer him a scorpion? 13 If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask Him!”
I began praying for the Holy Spirt each morning. I also asked the Holy Spirit to help me give up these desires once and for all. Almost immediately I could sense a difference. Looking back I can see a marvelous transformation beginning in me. It was a miracle! The thing I had fought for well over 40 years, was completely gone!
Friends, if you are struggling with anything in your life, ask your heavenly Father for the Holy Spirit, daily. Then ask the Holy Spirit to lead in your life, to help you overcome and conquer that thing that wants to destroy your peace and your relationship with Jesus.
I cannot imagine the Father telling you no. After all, if we as earthly parents love to give good gifts, imagine how much more our Heavenly Father loves to give the Holy Spirit to those who simply ask for it!
Ask, and it will be given to you!